i don't want your body but i hate to think about you with somebody else

It’s clear that you no longer find me valuable or interesting. (I don’t know when it happened but I’m sorry)

you break all your bones to go around and play with me
is all we can have for now
i break all my bones trying to hide my kisses for you
is all we can have for now
broken bones

please come home
i can't close my eyes anymore
probably im gonna be the fool 
who's gonna sit and sing to you about stars, girl

'cos time heals
but time cuts deeper than before
i feel better when i'm not thinking love
but i can't get away from it

i will meet her at the b sides of my dreams

i swear, i try
i'm not trying anymore
so, wanna come save me?
or just make fun of me?
i'm sick of you coming only to see me in the falling

i've been learning 
sitting on the floor
cleaning all my dirty sheets
all my dirty hopes

you were a blessing now you are a curse
what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore

on both hands i hold tigers for centuries
this is the best way to ruin friendships 
my heart is leaking sand memories
(oh god you never listen)
what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore

i wanna burn your sheets
i wanna sleep on your sheets
i wanna kiss your friends
i wanna kill all your friends
and every goddamn loveboy you have

what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore

last night i started to cry while i was looking at you in your sleep

sometimes we kiss so hard i forgot how my body feels like

sometimes we kiss so hard i forgot how my lips feel like

sometimes you touch me so hard i forgot how my sad thoughts feel like

sometimes we fuck so hard i remember how love tastes like

and it tastes like you

you look like love

you feel like love

you are love love love love

a choking rose back to be reborn

just stop and think a minute,

why don't you light that cigarette?

calm down now stop and breathe a second

go back to the very beginning

can't you see what was different then?

your head is so numb. 

that nervous breath you try to hide between the motions

that trembling tender little sigh

                a choking rose back to be reborn.
            

i want to hold you like you're mine

you see the sad in everything

a genius of love and loneliness

this time you overdid the liquor; this time you pulled the fucking trigger.

these days you're rolling all the time, so low so you keep getting high

where went that cheeky friend of mine? where went that billion dollar smile?

guess life is long when soaked in sadness
on borrowed time from Mr Madness

you're gone but you're on my mind

 i'm lost but i don't know why

There’s pieces of me you never gave back. There are nights that I can’t think about without flinching. Mornings I have to draw over in black marker. What if nobody ever looks at me like you did. What if I never find those secrets again. What if I am never whole again.

''I swear when I grow up I won't just buy you a rose,
I will buy the flower shop, and you will never be lonely.''

i was a blindfold, never complained

should never HAVE KISSED YOU I SHOULD NEVER TOLD YOU I LOVE YOU
CAUSE I DO
SO FUCKIN
BAD
SO FUCKING BAD
IT HURTS WHEN THE SUN GOES DOWN AND I CANT HOLD YOUR HAND
CAUSE YOU ARE CRYING AND CRYING AND I CANT I CANT I CANT HELP YOU

IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
HEAVEN WILL NEVER CALL MY FUCKING NAME

i wish i could write you an upbeat song for everytime you think time went wrong
for everytime you think your heart is wrong

if dark seeks dark
why do i keep chasing that sunshine?
if dark seeks dark
the darkness must feel so alone

another bad day
my love is not good
the scary scenery won't kill me
these bright lights won't save me

my fists are too small to fight the pieces of sadness i let somebody burn in me
so why do i keep chasing that sunshine?

if dark seeks dark
why do i let the darkness chase me?

how do i make everything come back at me again?

in a world so fast that our feet hurt from running

you were only made to break my heart

time has it own weapons baby
does your heart feel better in the dark?

''i'm sorry i'm such a letdown''
i told her every night

i hope you meet me halfway the road
'cause i can't stand myself anymore

my 9s to 5s is cutting open old scars
you said we could write our chances in a place better
i don't even want to write my chances at all
where everything is made of golden stars

i'm telling you ''just hold me together''
and you are tearing me apart
always disappearing
is not enough

''i'm sorry i'm such a letdown''
i told her every night

i hope you meet me halfway the road
'cause i can't stand myself anymore

the clouds are all over the city but i'm not over you
with the head in the clouds and the feet in the deep blue sea

i've been chasing the foxes since i was born
my heart is too broken by the things i know

now i hold onto memories to not fall apart
for times when it used to be so much beauty in the storm

you unblessed my heart and killed my soul
you take me for granted when i was hurt

you've got all the nightmares
you've got all the dreams
you've been away so many nights (too many nights)

i won't mind if someone takes my place
this isn't the way it should have ended
because my mouth is bleeding again

i know god is everywhere but not in this head
i swear not in this head

frustration is never over
they told me this party it was only to leave you hangover

i keep telling i wish i was dead
when all i want is to be in your bed

the ringing goes loud at night
but in the morning it doesn't feel right
this hotel room makes me feel sick, even with all the green lights

when i started to forget my real name
i ran to your room
my heart is not fine
speaking with a hole in my lungs

my body hurts hurts hurts so badly
for wanting to start again
just imagine having enough love
for wanting to start again
it hurts it hurts it hurts

i don't know what to believe
i was already such a mess when you were fifteen
i don't know what to believe

i was already such a mess when you were fifteen
and it hurts it hurts it hurts

cansada de estar enferma
cansada de estar media enferma
media cansada
los ojos mas cansados que conozco
los ojos mas muertos que he visto
arrastro mi cuerpo a los lugares a los que ya no quiero ir
ya no lo quiero mas
mientras miro el piso
aturdida a mas o poder
¿cómo querés que me sienta cuando hasta yo misma me traiciono?
¿cómo querés que me sienta?
no se como engañarme sin romper las cuatro paredes que me encierran.

i don't know how to love anymore
i don't want to write songs anymore
i don't want to watch the tv anymore

in war my life was better
our moment is gone

it never stops raining in this parade

prisoner of time
i sound so desperated when it's about you
filled with guilt to the throat

how high should i get so i can see you?

i keep asking where is my paradise
what is paradise?
tired eyes
how did you take care of all this pain?
sometimes i look in the mirror
i get so scared

you had seen the flowers in my eyes
i can't make them grow anymore anymore anymore

i'm never gonna be the poet i want 
'cause i have left all my poetry behind
i filled all my heart with nothing but empty words 
i was so much better years ago without her song

you know i worked all my life for this heart
this masterpiece thats is our love 
you know i could die for you

please don't ask me twice 

'cause i know i do i do i do

everything is as twice as heavy
and bad dreams keep coming
the dreamer is only falling

take my youth and all it's trouble, all my life has been in a filter bubble
you know i could die for you

please don't ask me twice 

'cause i know i do i do i do

if they let us

"I sometimes fear that I am misunderstood.
It is simply because what I want to say,
what I need to say, won't be heard.
Heard in a way I so rightfully deserve.
What I choose to say is of so much substance
That people just won't understand the depth of my message.
So my voice is not my weakness,
It is the opposite of what others are afraid of.
My voice is my suit and armor,
My shield, and all that I am.
I will comfortably breath in it, until I find the moment to be silent.
I live loudly in my mind, so many hours of the day.
The world is pin drop sound compared to the boom
That thumps and bumps against the walls of my cranium.
I live it and love it and despise it and I am entrapped in it.
So being misunderstood, I am not offended by the gesture, but honored.
If they let us..."

once i loved so hard that i broke my bones
my songs never warmed people's hearts
three years ago i could tell, my nights would fell
now on mornings i'm dying as well
it's kinda sad but i'll take it

every new failure comes into a new brand scar
a troubled mind for a troubled heart
i tried to make a change but my brain is going places i dont know
and i don't know what to say

creative songs come from creative concepts they say
well i think hurting myself isn't very much creative
i learnt it from my eyes
my mom used  to say i was good at it
now i'm not good at anything
me and my broken hands

me and my broken eyes

me lastimo mucho
sigo sin partir

extraño mucho
y sigo sin sentir

lloro mucho
pero sigo sin creer

te dejé mucho adentro mío
y ahora haces estragos
te dejé consumirme hasta el último hueso
y ahora me pago con esto

me lastimo mucho
sigo existiendo sin saber como es vivir sin esto

you're gonna kiss me twice
and forget all my lies

you scent is like a poem to the sun

every year goes by
the more fragile i become
the faster goes the clock
the sadness had overcome

i dont want to bury my lovers, they keep me alive
this is just a new kind of sadness which i need to get used to

i can't lie to you but i will
i can't hold on to you but i do


the dream is over or the dreamer has gone?

if home is where the heart is then i'm pretty much heartless

oblivious child, where are you going now?
the smell of the rain brings you down every cold second
sick of this pride
will who cares when you're a dead end?

hold me tight
you are the one i can't- that i know lips can't resist

rome burned in flames 'cause you touch it
you are the only punch i like to recieve

heads hitting the glass, so fine
victim of the ocaccion
please don't make me say it
is not that i don't want be loved
is that i dont want to get hurt, i don't wanna die

Quand je ne dors pas
La nuit se traîne
La nuit n'en finit plus
Et j'attends que quelque chose vienne
Mais je ne sais qui je ne sais quoi
J'ai envie d'aimer, j'ai envie de vivre
Malgré le vide de tout ce temps passé
De tout ce temps gaché
Et de tout ce temps perdu
Dire qu'il y a tant d'êtres sur la terre
Qui comme moi ce soir sont solitaires
C'est triste à mourir
Quel monde insensé
Je voudrais dormir et ne plus penser
J'allume une cigarette
J'ai des idées noires en tête
Et la nuit me parait si longue, si longue, si longue
Au loin parfois j'entends d'un bruit de pas
Quelqu'un qui vient
Mais tout s'éfface et puis c'est le silence
La nuit ne finira donc pas
La lune est bleue, il y a des jardins
Des amoureux qui s'en vont main dans la main
Et moi je suis là
A pleurer sans savoir pourquoi
A tourner comme une âme en peine
Oui, seule avec moi-même
A désirer quelqu'un que j'aime
pas cette nuit, pas cette nuit
Qui ne finira donc jamais
Mais j'ai trop le cafard
Je voudrais partir au hasard
Partir au loin et dès le jour venu
Mais la nuit, la nuit, oh La nuit n'en finit plus
Oh oh oh oh, oh! la nuit ne finit plus

why won't you let me go?
do I threaten all your plans?
i'm insignificant.

if our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

Nunca sueño cosas buenas o cuerdas. Las pesadillas tienen manos y esas manos me acarician al dormir. No puedo ni siquiera confiar en mi sueño o en mi cama.
Mi cara se convirtió en una mueca falsa de lo mucho que me duele verme envejecer.
No siento a nadie mas que a la ausencia.
La ausencia de todos.



(2014)

i don't want to let this go
i'm sorry
all these beautiful ghosts calling up my name
i want
to
get
away

and never break your heart again

''i'm afraid that i can't be your savior'' she said
i think a lot about it when the music is too loud
the sunset could murder me

take my eyes off
'cause i dont want to see this again
your precious head got me round in circles all day
i'm a burden with no borderline
a sky too blue to feel the sun
a sky too blue to feel the sun

i waited a million times,
this isn't new to me
all these ghosts will keep calling up my name