i swear, i try
i'm not trying anymore
so, wanna come save me?
or just make fun of me?
i'm sick of you coming only to see me in the falling

i've been learning 
sitting on the floor
cleaning all my dirty sheets
all my dirty hopes

you were a blessing now you are a curse
what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore

on both hands i hold tigers for centuries
this is the best way to ruin friendships 
my heart is leaking sand memories
(oh god you never listen)
what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore

i wanna burn your sheets
i wanna sleep on your sheets
i wanna kiss your friends
i wanna kill all your friends
and every goddamn loveboy you have

what is not real, i shouldn't care anymore