if anything

if anything
please don't call me
please don't come at me

if anything
tell my mom i loved her
and bury my body next to the flowers

if anything
i love you

if anything
i'm not you anymore
i'm not they anymore
but i am

if anything 
there's a monster in my head
there's a monster in my bed

if anything
i just wanna put a rope around my neck
and leave the world to wreck