I still dream of doing nice things with you. 
Will you come see me? 
A world without you deserves none of the love I give.

what did you do to me? i don't understand
i wanna dance to that dumb beat again.

dreaming with eyes that aren't yours
fuck this old fashioned, you know?
i wish i could take a plane back home
and sleep every night in that bed you own

yeah i fuck bitches for breakfast and kill martyrs for lunch
i look like a mess
people asking
'what's between their legs?'
my chest's pressed everyday
next sunday, we'll fade

i don't care if it's in my head or in my blood
but i wanna fight for my reborn
the love of my life never loved me and the girl from my dreams never called me
so, could you please like my pics?

fuck if they talk
kiss me while we can

drunk-text me babe
you know there's nothing to lose
tell me how much you need me
suffocate me under your shoes

hit that AM message baby
i know you won't regret it
but i know i will
and in the morning,
lets please forget

if anything

if anything
please don't call me
please don't come at me

if anything
tell my mom i loved her
and bury my body next to the flowers

if anything
i love you

if anything
i'm not you anymore
i'm not they anymore
but i am

if anything 
there's a monster in my head
there's a monster in my bed

if anything
i just wanna put a rope around my neck
and leave the world to wreck

hanahaki

i'm not from the sun anymore

i'm just going to the moon, the one i call home
girl if you see the stars as i do
please go
they don't mind and they never show

claiming things as i mind
taking this around my neck as mine
taking the bus on time
or just running away from my destoying lies

i'm so inside my head

quiet

don't dream too big, kid 

you know you're gonna fall
you know you're my dissapointment
quiet

i can't find the words i like
'cause you take them all away
i can't talk to anyone
'cause i'm going to cry

you told me our love was a like a song
but you didn't even get the lyrics right
everytime i walk down that street
i'm feeling your memory and it's willing to keep

we used to not believe in what the tv says
but i guess is the only thing distracting me now
i know i can't stand next to these boys

baby i was blind for you
baby i wouldn't die for you
baby i wouldn't do all the things i said i wanted to do

i always put you in a bad mood
so why the fuck i keep living in your bed?

even drunk i still find the words to make you cry
even high or even blind
always letting you down

im older than my body
my body is older than me

does this sickness ever go away?
maybe if i listen to this song long enough i'll learn to love myself

it was january and you told me to live with a bullet in my chest
i don't wanna close my eyes
all around me everything will die 

even drunk i still find the words to make you cry
even high or even blind
always letting you down

i used to be a clever boy
with hopes and expectations and all

now my legs aren't used to walk anymore
thinking about the nights i haven't slept
dreaming of leaving my mom crying
and my dad dying

here i am again
writing a song to feel something
filling the holes with new regrets
while breathing your friends' cigarettes

i hope this ghost hurts you like hell, just like mine

god i wish i believed you when you told me this was my home

esta es la última vez que te escribo. 
porque estoy harto de estos pensamientos de mierda.
estoy harto de vos y de toda la mierda que me tiraste encima.

me siento enfermo del estómago y no puedo vomitar
no puedo vomitar las palabras.
porque no quiero hablarte.
no quiero escribirte.
no quiero escucharte.
no quiero saber de vos ni de tu vida de mierda con tus rutinas de mierda y tus forma de lidiar de mierda.

cruel.
eso es lo que sos. 
cruel.
cruel la forma como tiraste todo lo que sentía a la basura.
me dejaste 2 días después de comprar el pasaje para verte, enferma.
podrías haber avisado que ya te habías cansado de tener un cadáver encima
y si pensas si era porque querías verme, pensa dos veces. porque no querías verme a mi, querías verlo a él. 
querías estar con él sin culpa y tenías que dejarme como un pelotudo para eso.
me enfermas.
me enfermaste.

me enfermaste con inseguridades y ataques de ira
angustia.
ansiedad.
me vaciaste de todo lo bueno.
soy tan frágil como una hoja de papel y tan vulnerable como un techo de cartón.
estoy enfermo.

There’s just this feeling sometimes that you’re not good enough. You have to be perfect. How can you get love? How will you be acceptable? What is the right way to be? Underneath a heartbreak record, there’s a bigger heartbreak which is that you didn’t love yourself and the ways that you hurt yourself because of that lack of self love. Songs are really protective. I always feel like if I put something in a song, it’s safe. It can live in this song.

— Florence Welch on Hunger

dreamed of my guitar last night
it was over before it started
you broke in two my plastic king's crown right away
but you know what? it's alright

and you dye your hair blue
'cause nobody feels the way you do
and you wish you could be everyone except you

i'm sad 'cause you are sad
and that somehow makes us sadder
you just don't know how to love anymore
trying to get free from the memories of their cold war

and you don't wanna be like them
but you were born sick
with a silent voice

i need love, i'm tired of danger
i'm always so bittersweet
ready to break
too tired to speak

and i tell you
''look, i have been here a million times
don't worry, i don't mind''
but you smile, tell your mother and cry

maybe it's the loud of the party
maybe it's this shit i'm smoking
or all the glasses i'm drinking
but are on my mind
but i swear baby you're on my mind

i saw you in a dream where there was lipstick all over my face
can i stay at your place? 
the sun is warmer than ever

and heaven has nothing on you
and my clearest blue

maybe it's the loud of the party

maybe it's this shit i'm smoking
or all the glasses i'm drinking

but i swear baby you're on my mind
and i love it every single time<3

They'll talk about us, all the lovers
How we kiss and kill each other 
They'll talk about us, and discover
How we kissed and killed each other.

*

every single day, your bullshit gets stuck under my shoes
oh my god, you are so damn cruel
you're never gonna change
i'm sure my bright sun won't miss you, fool

on august i'll think
'happy birthday babe,
wherever you are'
with all new friends and people who surely cares

always thinking how i could hurt you but only to hurt myself

i used to give you everything
now i don't wanna waste a single thought on you
all the buildings in the city look the same 
all your lies still hurt my head quite the same
and these feels are my forever cold empty rain
are you thinking of me?

'cause i'm always thinking how i could hurt you
but every night i end up hurting myself

a year ago we were the only heroes in the story
kings and queens
they were all jealous of our glory
i left you a note on your phone while dancing
'you're driving me wild'

checking the phone like you're gonna text me
screaming 'don't mind me don't mind me don't mind me'
while i hope you mind me mind me mind me

i'm so tired of hurting myself
please just call up a doctor so
don't have to wait ever again
i have it so bad in the brain

tonight you're in town
you gotta get out from here
this is the only place i have since you left me homeless
screaming 'don't mind me don't mind me don't mind me'
while i hope you mind me mind me mind me

this is the hundred time i called you a motherfucker this week
or should i call you a liar while i think 'i should lie between your legs'?
screaming 'don't mind me don't mind me don't mind me'
while i hope you mind me mind me mind me

i'm a fool soaked in blue
soaked in you
can you get out of my life?
of my clothes
of my eyes
of my room

all my friends tell me to leave you alone
but they don't know you were the only friend i had

you know i hate this silence but it's better than being left behind

fuck troye and fuck khalid too
fuck every single song that reminds me of you.

even when i'm trying to say ''fuck you''
i say ''for you'' 
you're the only wall i keep bumping into
you're the only one.

i've been in love with you since i was 18
and now you think i'm gonna leave
do you really think i wanna leave?

we're living in different worlds now.

there's no lover waiting for me
everyday i'm spitting blood, bad blood
the miracle is when i'm not
my body feels like it's under attack from a hundred killer bees
this isn't me

i didn't call the cops on you
and your breathing never stopped

it's fine
i can't help but to try to make you laugh
while missing your finger tips
i'm not pretending to be a fucking gentleman
while missing your hips
this isn't me

how many joints do i need to be happy?
i already sold my soul to you
what else i have to do?
to prove myself to you
i have no place to go
this isn't me 

no, i didn't call the cops on you
and your breathing never stopped

the truth will set you free
but first it'll piss you off.

i wrote this on the bus window

i wish you were here
are you wishing that too?

i miss you
do you miss me too?

i feel broken
are you broken too?

i loved you
did you love me too?

oh, how i wish i was them
with all their serotonin 

misery loves 'em, yeah
but not as much as it loves me

you have no idea
'cause all the boys 
will be looking at you
and none will be me.

there's a statue of you in my bed
to remind me every night i spent in your arms
with the beat of my heart as loud as the music outside

let's stay inside for tonight
we can forget about time
and invent our own

the hickeys you left on my skin
prettier than any tattoo i could ever get

all i say is ''baby come back''
but you are not coming back
and i don't know what to do

all i say is ''baby come back''
but you are too bored 
with my lazy words
and my nostalgia

let's stay inside for tonight
maybe we could hide on those stairs forever
or at least that's what i want
we can forget about time
and invent our own.

i'm made of terrible things but with beautiful endings
i wanna walk to the edge of town and think about all the bastards that never loved me...

i dont ever wanna die
and the taste of your lips is all i wanna find
oh, but this orange glow has no reason to be
only to feed my soul

sorry for loving so much
sorry for loving so bad

oh boy, i wish i was easy to talk to
there's a hole in my head for all the things i find 
a mess on the fantasy and the misery
i talk to myself to see if i'm still alive
when there's a masterpiece trapped inside your eyes
i'm afraid i can't say this without a smile
i know in new years eve i won't be holding your hand

sorry for loving so much
sorry for loving so bad

it's clear here in the city
i can't hear a soul
i miss everything i touch

keep your sobbing quiet
you don't want to wake the devil up
stealing the pride in front of my eyes

fuck your stinky cigarrette and fuck my life after this
every favourite place is where you are
you are from somewhere in the sun
drenched in fever
i leave all the sad songs in here cause i want all the happy ones for my love

thank god bones get broken 
cause it would be so boring to be indistructible