soy solo un cielo gris que le trae oscuridad a todos

y la habitación se queda quieta

de a poco los cerámicos dejan de verse junto a las patas de la silla y la cama

junto con los muebles se mojan las sabanas

todo empieza a meterse entre los cajones y la ropa

estoy quieta apoyada en la almohada

el agua sube por mis extremidades y mi nuca

respiro por 2 segundos mas y mi nariz queda atrapada

siento que vuelo, pero no, solo floto.

el agua sobre pasa los muebles, llegando hasta el techo

yo sigo ahí, inmóvil

momentos después no están mis piernas ni mis dedos

mis brazos no responden

mis ojos no ven, mi boca no se cierra

los pulmones dejan de funcionar, el corazón decae


estoy azul, como mis alrededores

estoy ahogada.

i'm not girl for worshipping
why i miss being lonely?
because it seems that the darkness knows me better
better than you and me

when we were kids we knew it was coming 
now that we're older we think that is all we deserve owning
i wish i could say some things but i guess this is my head killing me

scared of every little thing i have
i deserve the truth which it's better off death

learn how your sadness can make you forget your name and take you to somebody else's bed
i'm sick of hurting you
the faces i have to face i go to sleep tell i am forever lost forever lost forever lost forever lost
i'm sick of myself

gotta fight the undesirable feeling
tired that i need methods to take my sadness to a better place
shouting, singing,
or taking my head between your knees

am i the cause of all my pain? surely i am
sometimes i even hear the same notes i've heard on my nightmares
protect me from all i've done
restrain me in order to see the morning sun
destroy me in order be the number one 

they might be obesessed with somebody else 
and i, to have a real friend

you don't know me
you dont' know me at all
i wish you could
oh how i wish you could